Dating & Relating

Bottom line, everything comes down to relationship – the relationship you have to yourself, to others, to money, to life … it’s an unassailable fact that all the problems in life boil down to the thorny issue of relationship. Even if you try hiding out on a desert island, there’s still the little matter of the relationship you have with yourself. There’s just no escaping it.

So let’s all breathe a huge sigh of relief for the spiritual wisdom shared by Charlotte Kasl in her books If The Buddha Dated and If The Buddha Married. A slightly cynical part of me wonders whether If The Buddha Divorced is in the works, but let’s just be grateful for all the help we can get, shall we?

Charlotte Kasl has gathered together some helpful Buddhist principles, along with Sufi and Quaker techniques, to bring more clarity to the subjects of dating and relating. This is where Buddhism really comes into its own, for its emphasis on detachment, which allows us to really see what’s going on, rather than getting stuck in our own viewpoint.

In If The Buddha Dated, Kasl writes about the most basic need to ground ourselves in our own authenticity, because relating with others – particularly in a romantic sense – can bring up the unhealed places in us from past traumas and the negative self-perceptions that we’ve come to see as truth from years of repetition. Vowing to commit to being our authentic self is vital for self-esteem and essential in holding your own space around others.

She notes “We become spiritually grounded when we make this commitment to ourselves: More than anything else, I want myself. I want to live with integrity and truth. I’m not going to hide the jewel of who I am, nor mask my imperfections. No bargains, no avoiding reality, no conning myself, no lies. The more we commit to knowing and accepting ourselves, the more we are able to surrender to loving another person because we have nothing to hide and nothing to be ashamed of. Our spiritual commitment to truth and integrity creates a safe harbour within us – a mooring, a home to return to when the journey gets rough. This is immensely important in the dating process because new love can resurrect our most primitive feelings of fear, hope, dependency and emptiness. If we know how to soothe our pain and relax into our emptiness, we won’t be afraid to be open and honest, regardless of the outcome.”

What an amazing vow. I’m inclined to suggest that it’s one you should write out on a card and carry it around with you. Imagine reminding yourself every morning that you’re not going to hide the jewel of who you are – that’s got to be a kick-ass way to start the day!

Reminding us that it’s holding our own centre that brings us growth and security, Kasl adds “If we succumb to fear, we start holding back, and do that all-too-common dance of getting close, then pulling away. When we remember that our safe harbour depends on our awareness and honesty, we’re less likely to make internal compromises, put on masks or act like a chameleon to attract a partner or keep a hurtful relationship together. If we live by truth we may have pain, but we will always rest securely within ourselves.”

Authenticity is always going to be about holding that core of your own inner truth against whatever pull of the outside world is threatening to throw you off course. Naturally, we all end up making detours that are probably ill-advised, but unless we have a strong sense of self, we can drift way off purpose following someone else’s dream or fulfilling someone else’s desire. That point is as valid in a work arena as in intimate relationships. The advice for dating rings true in any form of relationship, be it business or personal.

Another fascinating aspect of all relationships is how rarely we are simply reacting to what is in front of us. We know for sure that we’re igniting our baggage and bringing the past into the present when we have a strong reaction to a person or an event. If your emotions are being intensely triggered, consider it the iceberg effect – most of what is going on is not on the surface.

In If The Buddha Married, Kasl writes “We are all a marvellous maze of different parts and levels of development. A question I have found very helpful for myself and my clients is simply this: How old do I feel right now? Sometimes we feel centred and grown-up; other times, we feel young, off-centre or confused. Our frustration might feel like a three-year-old having a tantrum or resemble a rebellious teenager. These states may switch rapidly in response to different people and situations. The point is to realise when we’re in a childlike state and understand that it is not primarily about the current situation. We are emotionally wired into a past experience that is affecting our response. We need to stop and reflect before acting.”

That, folks, is the simple truth that gets in the way of so many relationships – when our past gets on a collision course with someone else’s present, they’ll need to duck for cover unless we’re willing to take responsibility and recognise that our old rage, resentment, fear, hurt or sadness has been triggered. That doesn’t mean they’re necessarily in the right, but that we to make sure that our response to whatever has triggered us is proportionate and appropriate. And that we can express ourselves truthfully and responsibly, without fear or a need for retaliation.

There’s a helpful list of child states – or automatic reactions from past trauma – in the book, to which Kasl adds the caveat “The idea is not to judge yourself or attempt some impossible notion of perfection. It’s to bring awareness and understanding to yourself. For example, if you repeatedly feel worried about people’s reactions – Do they like me? Am I doing it right? – it can be very helpful to understand that it is probably more about your reaction as a child to a critical parent than current reality. You can learn to say to yourself ‘That was then, this is now’. What is actually going on now?”

Kasl also advises “When you go through the list, explore the nature of your responses. For example, if you tend to break agreements, is it because you over-commit and feel afraid to say no, or is it because you feel resentful of being asked to help? Most of us have a few predominant age regressions. Remember all of these responses are about conditioning. You existed before taking on all these thoughts and beliefs and your true essence or consciousness that dwells within your centre is perfect and free.”

Common Traits Of Child States Or Trauma

Fear of saying what you feel, need, think and want.
Fear of saying no and setting limits.
Feeling hurt, mad or rejected when someone says no to you.
Fear of being left, hurt abandoned.
Fear of conflict and differences.
Fear of being swallowed up and losing your identity.
Fear of violence.
Intense angry outbursts: screaming, yelling, name-calling.
Rationalising/making up excuses for your partner’s behaviour.
Taking on the worries and anxieties of your partner.
Breaking agreements, not following through on tasks you agreed to do.
Blame: not taking responsibility for your actions.
Feeling entitled to be waited on, supported, taken care of.
Withholding, withdrawing, refusing to talk.
Feeling uneasy, possessive or jealous when your partner seeks out new friends and feels passionate about their interests.
Feeling afraid or embarrassed to tell your partner you’ve made a mistake.
Feeling needy, insecure or afraid of being alone.
Defensiveness – having difficulty listening to your partner without interrupting to explain yourself or prove your partner wrong.
Being in unequal roles, such as parent-child, teacher-student or enlightened one-neophyte, rescuer-rescuee, healthy one-emotionally damaged one.
Active addictions to drugs, food, gambling, shopping, sex, work that are not being addressed.
Using sex to try to creat a closeness that is lacking in the relationship or saying yes when you really want to say no or no when you really want to say yes.
Frequent headaches, stomach aches, tensions, low energy, boredom with life, feeling stuck.

OK, take a deep breath – that list is hard going. If you got through it without recognising a few of your own, you’re probably in denial. Again, remind yourself this is not about making you feel guilty, but about bringing light to the shadow parts of ourselves that haven’t made it to grown-up territory quite yet. And we all have a lot of those, so there’s nothing to feel bad about. Plus, awareness is half the battle. When you realise you’re doing something out of an ingrained habit, you can give yourself the breathing space that allows you to start reacting differently. The mantra that will get you across the bridge from teenage-style tantrum to adult appropriate reaction when you realise your past has been triggered is ‘That was then, this is now’. Accompany it with a few deep breaths and you’re on your way to acting out of your authentic self, not your conditioned self. That’s real progress.

This week, give the list a good going over and start working up your own hit parade of favourite negative patterns. Pay attention to what sets you off and see if you can catch them as they happen, remembering to say to yourself ‘That was then, this is now’ before reacting. If you don’t manage it, don’t beat yourself up either. This is a detachment technique that requires practice. You will get it and ultimately you’ll be able to laugh at yourself – in a kind way! – when you catch your three-year-old or thirteen-year-old self at it again. And remember to start your day with the thought that more than anything you want yourself - your authentic self - and you will not hide the jewel of who you are. How fabulous is that?

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